Monday, April 20, 2009

A Story Worth Reading

Read THIS moving story of a family who adopted a son that they knew would not live to be a year old. At the end of the story they share a very challenging blog post that this couple posted when their new son was about three is a section of it:

Matt doesn't respond positively to all the love and care we shower on him, and despite the fact that I knew in my head he wouldn't, I still want him to smile back at me. Instead of smiling, he either stares at me blankly or screams in response to my best efforts to communicate with him. The discouragment I feel at his failure to thrive only evidences the selfishness of my endeavors. Before Matt, I was tempted to believe I loved my children with at least an inkling of selflessness. I now know that I expect at least some return for my investment. At the very least, I would like a two-month smile and a 3-month squeal of delight in response for the long nights and endless feedings. I am humbled further to think of the earthly reward I am tempted to expect from my older children. Each day with Matt, it looks more and more like all of our reward is being deposited in heaven (or not, because God loves a cheerful giver, and sometimes, I am just not). Frankly, I am not all that happy about the choice of accounts. While I may have previously thought I wanted to deposit all of my treasure in heaven, I now know I am more or a 50/50 or even 75/25 kind of girl; I would like some treasure in heaven and most of it here.

Dont miss this story it is worth the read.


thehirschgang said...

PTL...this is such an amazing testimony of God...TRUTH! I absolutely LOVE the paragraph after the quote you posted from the journal, about how in our purposeful acts of selflessness, our selfishness is exposed. Oh how true! Let the light shine in the darkness of our hearts! Ouch...amen...and thanks! Praise God, who saves us from us! Praying differently for my children now, for sure!

The Reardon's said...

Wow. We have so much to be thankful for.

The Self Cottage said...

whoa so good and so challenging.